Overthinking

Current moon state: Waxing gibbous in Libra

Meaning: A time for activity and to express yourself through feelings. A time of growth and harmonious love. you may also be indecisive and extreme.

I feel the energy from this full force this week. My mind has been extremely over active and no matter what,i cant seem to practice what i preach. I am buzzing with energy and ideas, feeding from the future dream of leaving the Army and following my heart. Now what should i say to myself?

Dani stop overthinking, be in this moment. It is perfect and just how it should be. Calm your mind and don't let it take control of you. You need to enjoy the journey and not wish the next year away. STOP PLANNING.

So that's when i realized i need to write it down. To extract theses thoughts from my brain and put them in black and white. I have been thinking so much about when i have left the Army, which is September next year. It might seem so long but for me this is life changing. I have been serving since i was 16 years old and it is scary to think of going into the big wide world with no financial stability, chasing a dream i am uncertain will pay the bills. Its funny because i write that but actually in my heart i know it will all be OK. My overthinking stems from excitement, excitement for another adventure to pursue something i love.

I have been looking at a lot of Yoga retreats in India to complete a 500 hour YTTC, leading on from or into a permaculture course in Thailand and finishing in Japan to visit the Reiki institute. Courses complete i would meet Richie in New Zealand for a 3 week adventure! Please someone explain how i can do this without planning? I have planned my finances for the next 18 months. No more compulsive spending and giving my well earned cash to Costa !

Then what ? If all runs smoothly i would become a free lance holistic therapist and yoga teacher. With a new added idea of completing a teacher trainer course in permaculture so i can run my own courses in France before the grande opening in 2020!

Dream big! i have always lived with the idea that you can do anything you want to do with planning and hard work. everything is in reach but nothing is given for free. After years of searching for my purpose i'm coming to realize the purpose is to develop myself so i can have a positive influence on others. To care for the earth and everyone on it, including themselves. I always had a strong attraction to holistic therapy and self-love because i have struggled with myself for a long time. sometimes i still do. I'm learning slowly to love myself and not take my thoughts to seriously, this comes hand in hand with loving and respecting others. Only in this passed few years have i took a interest in mother earth the place we live and should love. Yet we are slowly destroying it through greed and ignorance. I am not perfect but i have decided to make an effort to create change in my life. To be more mindful and appreciative of what we have.

So my journey continues. I honestly didnt know that begining yoga would change my life and ethics as much as it has. Its been a slow journey but i think that has been the best part. No pressure, coming off the path, getting back on it. Each time we mess up we learn something new and the path is always there we just need to swallow our pride and burn our regrets and get back on. There is always something new to learn and if we can focus our energy on this mindfulness to create a better earth we will be happier. Not worrying if we have bad days where we don't want to get out of bed or over indulge. We are humans with a powerful mind and sometimes when we're stressed our 'bad' traits may come out. I say 'bad' because really they are not. They are just you and you can learn to observe what is happening without passing judgement. My favorite quote right now:

"THIS TOO SHALL PASS"

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