Contentment

Should it concern me that I am content on my own ? I love the idea of being alone and having adventures ? I like sitting in silence and people watching . I love sitting and reading a book in coffee shops . I love absorbing the beauty of the world and art. I quite like the idea of fluttering in and out of people's lives. Like my best friends, they are there in my heart all the time and I make the best memories with them. They know me and all of me and being with them is a mirror of myself. They draw out the best in me and help me find my true self . Then i softly go on my way and discover other things which I gather and take back to them for feedback. Does it scare me ? Maybe that I'm not design to be with someone full time or that I've created this for myself ? I feel safe on my own I feel content. My heart is happy when I think about traveling and connecting to other people I have not met yet but at the same time it also smiles with the thought of returning to my loved ones to tell my stories and hear theirs. Everyday my sign off date comes closer and my stomachs turns in excitement. I know that is the right path for me. I don't know if I'll go away for longer or if i will find somewhere and never want to come back from. Never is a long time because I know that my heart is in building a retreat to help people find their path and to be happy on their journey. But I have a long way to go before I can help people like that. So for now I keep trusting and know I'm heading in the right direction everything is a lesson which will help me. One thing I haven't figured out is how to know if I am making the right decisions is my heart scared of something or is it right in giving me signs that something isn't right ? Breath, relax and listen you can never do the wrong thing ..... Phew